So it's here, exactly 12 months since Mum died and tomorrow will be 25 years since Dad did.... am really really struggling, can't settle, running over the events in my head, why didn't I do more? If I had been trained in c p r could I have saved her, I was with Mum when she died, Dad was in hospital alone, I don't know which is worse at the minute... I would give the world to turn the clock back, I can't and yet I am not sure how to go on either...