I lost my partner two months ago. He died aged 57 after a long battle with liver disease and whilst awaiting a transplant. He was my everything. He steadied me, kept me going, made me laugh, he used to know what I was thinking, I knew what he was thinking, I don't think I will ever get that level of closeness again. And now I just don't feel steady anymore. I have got this thin veneer of normality and underneath is this big pool of grief. I am coping day to day.. but only just. I've never been hit so hard by a loss like this before and I am literally taking things day by day... I don't know if things will ever be the same again because right now the only thing that would make me better is if he walked through the door again... I miss him.