It is hard to cope when you become an orphan no matter what age you are -i remember sorrow but also a feeling of fear when my mum died -she was suposed to get old and i was suposed to look after her in her old age thats how it is suposed to work - but she never got old, and now suddenly i was the matriarch -the one who had to take up her role and i wasnt up too it i could never be just like her.
Our parents are our foundations the building blocks of our lives, we move away have careers famillys homes of our own and take responsability for our own lives, but those foundations stay strong. When the first one dies we are there for the other one, half the foundations have slid away but the rest remains, but then the second one goes and suddenly all those building blocks have gone too -but they are not really gone, we cant see them for a while -but one day when you are searching for an answer you find one of those blocks, because all that they gave us,and all they taught us is never really gone but remains as do they, in our hearts and minds.